heylog - goodbye (audio)

’goodbye’ produced by heylog support heylog: lyrics: almost 5am, i find it harder to sleep i crack the window and i hear every animal sing with a wind blowing soft, rustling through the leaves admire nature as it comes alive from winter to spring the flowers grow so tall that they start to bloom and i just took a couple out cus i picked them for u hoping one day you’ll travel here to see what’s new cus this bouquet is gonna die if u don’t visit me soon and i have a difficult time spending days when ur on my mind wish this would just go away cus i’m trying to push u away why do i feel lonely knowing i hurt to see an outcast no one wants to be and giggled at n always being teased can someone give a valid reason on why i shouldn’t die in disbelief that i will never see a point in life i’m on and off of feeling bad and for a second i’m fine it’s so messed up and i don’t think that i will ever resign i’m so bipolar and i don’t want u to see me like this cus i guarantee i’ll scare u if i speak from my chest i didn’t mean for u to leave when u saw that on my wrist and i’m so sorry for putting u through all of this so why do u keep playing w me is it cause u get lonely in the night and think of us well it’s fine cus i think of us too why do i feel like this well nevermind cus u don’t care about this and if i die will u grieve and will cry and will u miss me CAN SOMEONE GIVE A VALID REASON ON WHY I SHOULDN’T DIE CAUSE YOU MAKE ME WANNA KILL MYSELF OR GO GRAB THE KNIFE I’M AT THE AGE WHERE I CAN NEVER SEE A POINT IN LIFE IN DISBELIEF OF EVERYTHING THAT I’M JUST WASTING MY TIME I’M SO BIPOLAR AND I DON’T WANT YOU TO SEE ME LIKE THIS CAUSE I GUARANTEE I’LL SCARE YOU IF I SPEAK FROM MY CHEST I’M AT THE BOTTOM OF THE OCEAN WITH ALL OF MY REGRETS THERE’S MANY THINGS I WISH WERE GONE OR WISH I COULD RESET I STEP INTO THE LIGHT AND DID THIS WITHOUT A GROUP AND SO YOU NOTICING ME NOW WHEN I’M STEADY ON THE MOVE AND YOU JUST THINK IT’S ALL OKAY TO HIT ME UP OUT OF THE BLUE I’M NOT YOUR FRIEND OR TYPE OF BENEFIT TO SATISFY YOU SO PLEASE GIVE A VALID REASON THAT YOU WANT ME DEAD IS IT SAFE TO EVEN KNOW THAT THIS JUST MIGHT BE A TEST FOR YOU TO TRICK ME INTO THINKING I’M NOTHING BUT A MESS DELETE YOUR IMAGE THAT I LONGED FOR AND NOT SEEN AGAIN if i can’t love will i end up alone and forgot or spend it w someone i can’t fall in love my hearts dead probably numb i miss u my dear it feels like it’s been years no way home i was never close the path ends here don’t know where to go stone cold lies i knew i was right so farewell cus this is goodbye