It is common for avatars to feel like we were abandoned by God or our spiritual teachers. This is a reaction to the shock of coming to earth and being attacked despite our good intentions. We wonder how God could allow a planet like earth to exist.
This video discusses the mechanism behind the feeling and how to overcome it by realizing what is really going on. When we grasp what kind planet earth is and what we are here to demonstrate, we see that we were not abandoned.
The video also talks about the practical aspects of overcoming our subconscious selves, including reducing the energetic pull and coming to see the illusion that a self is based on. Once we get rid of certain selves, it becomes much easier to connect to our spiritual teachers and transcend the sense fo being abandoned.