Tick, ! soundtrack - Jonathan Larson
track 06 - Therapy
(with Raul Esparza, Raúl Esparza)
Music and words written by Jonathan Larson, who sings on a demo track recorded in 1993.
Recorded at Clinton Recording Studio B, New York, New York on July 9, 2001.
JONATHAN AND SUSAN
SUSAN:
Are you saying we can’t talk?
JONATHAN:
Are you saying we are not talking?
SUSAN:
What are you saying?
JONATHAN:
What are you saying?
I’m saying I feel bad, that you feel bad
About me feeling bad, about you feeling bad
About what I said, about what you said
About me not being able to share a feeling
SUSAN:
If I thought that what you thought
Was that I hadn’t thought about sharing my thoughts
Then my reaction to your reaction
To my reaction
Would have been more revealing
JONATHAN:
I was afraid that you’d be afraid
If I told you that I was afraid of intimacy
If you don’t have a problem with my problem
Maybe the problem is simply co-dependency
SUSAN:
Yes I know that now you know
That I didn’t know that you didn’t know
That when I said ’No’
I meant ’Yes, I know’
And that now I know that you knew
That you knew you adored me
JONATHAN:
I was wrong to
SUSAN:
Say you were wrong to
JONATHAN:
Say I was wrong about
SUSAN:
You being wrong
JONATHAN:
When you meant to say that
SUSAN:
The ring was the wrong thing to bring
JONATHAN:
If I meant what I said
When I said rings bore me
JONATHAN AND SUSAN:
I’m not mad that you got mad that I got mad
When you said I should go drop dead
JONATHAN:
If I were you when I’d done what I’d done
And I’d do what you did when I gave you the ring
Having said what I said
--- VOICE OVER VOICE ---
JONATHAN:
I feel bad, that you feel bad
About me feeling bad, about you feeling bad
About what I said, about what you said
About me not being able to share a feeling
I thought you’re gonna reacted shallowly
When I reacted to you
I’m not mad
You got mad
Go drop dead
If I were you when I’d done what I’d done
And I’d do what you did when I gave you the ring
Having said what I said
SUSAN:
I feel badly about you
Feeling badly about me
Feel badly about you
If I thought that what you thought
Was that I hadn’t thought about sharing my thoughts
Then my reaction to your reaction
To my reaction
Would have been more revealing
I’m not mad that you got mad that I got mad
When you said I should go drop dead
If I were you
But I’m not you
Said what I said
--- END OF VOICE OVER VOICE ---
JONATHAN:
BUt now it’s out in the open
SUSAN:
Now it’s off our chest
JONATHAN AND SUSAN:
Now it’s four am
And we have therapy tomorrow
It’s too late to screw
So lets just get some rest